The Feelings

终于。结果

2011-03-06T01:08:00.004+08:00

终于让我不小心的发现到了，也确认了。。
再也不是一个人的你，再也没有结果，放弃了。。
心里所有的也该放开了，收拾好，掩埋。。
不可否认心里有许多的无奈。。
对她许多的思念放开后，就要忘记。。
一边手掌是拍不响的，也许，做兄弟或姐妹会比较适合吧。。
也许是我自己没把握机会，但，过去的就算了吧，明天会更好。。
我会不停的等待，等待着更好的未来。。

？

2011-01-18T04:05:00.002+08:00

已经是凌晨4点多了，我并不想睡。
因为我知道每一次闭上眼睛第一个想到的就是她。
我试着不去想，但是真的很难做到。
思念就好像苦药，是如此的难熬。但。。
人往往就是那么犯贱，明知道结果是这样，
还是要踩下去，结果就越踩越生。。。。
我不明白，我猜不透。
如果可以，我想帮她把心里的那块大石搬掉，
问题是她愿不愿意呢？我该如何才能感动到她？
我该如何才让相信我？我该如何才能让她看到我的心呢？
这些都是个问号。。。。

心声

2011-01-16T01:34:00.002+08:00

一个人的夜晚是不是比较容易让人胡思乱想？
那些画面悄悄地在我的脑子里飘过。难道越踩越生？
也许我在她眼里并不算什么，但我却想雕刻地把她刻在心里。
这并不是什么甜言蜜语，而是我心里的话。
我不敢当面告诉她也许是因为怕会被拒绝。但我也知道，
如果我不把心里的话说出来她永远都不会懂。
问题是我哪来的勇气告诉她？
我试着进入她的世界，只不过是为了更接近她，更了解她。
也许人家会笑我傻，我承认我是。
我知道她所受过的伤害，我真的很想让她躲进我的双肘。
但我该怎么做？
我知道如果我不开口恐怕再也没机会，但。。。
我真的没那信心，没那个勇气。
所有的心声只好在这里说出来，也许有一天她会看到吧。

喜欢一个人有那么辛苦吗？

2011-01-15T03:15:00.003+08:00

喜欢一个人真的有那么辛苦吗？我不明白。
喜欢她却不敢开口说。是怕那被拒绝的感觉吗？
我连自己想要什么都不知道。
还是应该保持着朋友的关系会比较好。
“我喜欢你”这四个字有那么难说出口吗？
难道就一直藏在心里，永远都没勇气，没机会说出来?
真失败！难道是我自己太傻？
明知没可能的事，却还是要一脚踩下去。
认识她应该高兴还是难过，我不知道。
就让时间慢慢冲淡它吗？

为什么？

2010-11-22T03:23:00.000+08:00

为什么总是这样？难道我真的那么差？
好印相给不到人家，反而让她反感！
真的不知道该怎么做！难道真的两头不到岸。
我真的不想这样！没有人知道我的痛苦。
只好忍着把眼泪吞回去。
很想哭，但没办法哭出来。
因为在人家眼里我一直都是开心果。
我也想有个人听我诉苦，但不可能的事！
我的泪又在一次的为了一个女生流出来！
说过不再会这样，却每次都办不到！
难道我永远都这样。。。失败？

....

2010-11-20T02:12:00.002+08:00

自从三月到现在已经很久没在部落格PO东西了，也不知道要怎么写。
最近不知道是不是喜欢上了一个很特别的女生，每个人都叫我敢敢追她，这要我怎么开口啊。
我跟她也刚认识不会很久，而且人家也未必喜欢我。
没有别人帅，也没有别人有钱，真失败！
其实说真的，我也不知道自己是不是真的喜欢上她，只知道对她有一种很特别的感觉。
明明是自己没兴趣的东西，但会因为她而尝试去接触，最可笑的是每天都会情不制尽的想她，很想看到她。
老实说一句，她是我见过最特别的女生，性格很独特，跟别的女生相比真的很大分别。
刚才看了她的部落格，才知道她家里的情况。突然间有一种冲动想告诉她说让我照顾他，但我凭什么？
我尝试着去了解她，可是连一个跟她认识了十多年的朋友都不能完全抓到她的心，更何况是我！
想着她，想见她，关心她。
我想，也许我真的已经默默的喜欢上她了！

1 more week..

2010-03-12T20:10:00.005+08:00

1 more week..audition is coming, I'm so happy cause I've been waiting for 1 year for the audition..really hope that I can get into final 15..but unlucky if I pass the 1st audition I still don have the chance to stay along for the next audition..gotta rush back to hometown..I love singing, I love performing..but I hate rushing..I prepared for it..I wont make ppl who support me dissapointed..ASQ I'M COMING!!

终于...

2010-01-06T01:11:00.002+08:00

终于，我把她放下了，心里真的松了很多，之前一直忍受着的痛苦，终于在今天全部消失了。之所以这样是因为我找到了真正适合我的另一半。也许之前对她放下太多的感情，所以需要时间比较长。终于放下了心中的那块大石。在这里祝你和他快快乐乐甜甜蜜蜜。。

Wordless...

2009-12-27T01:17:00.002+08:00

I should have done that, I should have ignored it like sumthing i couldn't see. I should nt look at you at all. I should run awayand acted like I din hear your voice like sumthing i could not hear. I should not listen to love at all..

Without a word, you let me feel the love, without a word u let me feel like u gimme love. You made me even hold of your breath but u leave me. Love leave me and tossed me away. What should I say..Why does it hurts so much and continuously? My tears fall again, my hearts break down again.

I wait for love from you, but it hurts me again. I become a fool. I think my heart was surprise to see you happy with him..It comes and leave..maybe all I need to do is hurt for a while..

Journey To The Curve At Midnight 1.30am

2009-09-29T01:06:00.009+08:00

A journey to the curve..a crazy decision made by pro people..the objective was only to eat "The Curve's McD"..maybe it is more delicious =.=

Jogoya@StarHill

2009-09-21T01:47:00.006+08:00

Me and Byen

Chiu Waai, Me and Byen

Late celebration for Byen at Jogoya, enjoy da day, but unluckily the food was so bad...

Sorry Sorry

2009-08-28T23:53:00.003+08:00

Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry
Naega naega naega meonjeo
Nege nege nege ppajyeo
Ppajyeo ppajyeo beoryeo baby
Shawty Shawty Shawty Shawty
Nuni busyeo busyeo busyeo
Sumi makhyeo makhyeo makhyeo
Naega michyeo michyeo baby

Baraboneun nunbit soge
Nunbit soge naneun machi
Naneun machi mwoe hollin nom
Ijen beoseonajido motae
Georeooneun neoui moseup
Neoui moseup neoneun machi
Nae simjangeul barpgo wannabwa
Ijen beoseonajido motae

Eodil gana dangdanghage
Utneun neoneun maeryeokjeok
Chakhan yeoja ilsaegiran
Saenggakdeureun bopyeonjeok
Dodohage geochim eopge
Jeongmal neoneun hwansangjeok
Dorikil su eobseulmankeum
Nege ppajyeo beoryeosseo

Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry
Naega naega naega meonjeo
Nege nege nege ppajyeo
Ppajyeo ppajyeo beoryeo baby
Shawty Shawty Shawty Shawty
Nuni busyeo busyeo busyeo
Sumi makhyeo makhyeo makhyeo
Naega michyeo michyeo baby

Ttanttan ttanttada tta ttaranttan
Ttanttan ttanttada tta
Nege banhaebeoryeosseo baby
Ttanttan ttanttada tta ttaranttan
Ttanttan ttanttada tta ttarappappara

Hey girl gir gir gir gir gir girl I
Nunmantteumyeon ni saenggak Hey girl
Janakkaena sasil neo hana bakke anboyeo
Malhaebwa ni mame naega
Malhaebwa jari jabanneunji
Malhaejwo naege malhaejwo
Naneun babo babo babo

Jubyeon saramdeureun malhae
Naega neomu jeokgeukjeok
I sesange geureon saram
Eodi handurinyago
Geugeol molla geunyeol molla
Sigihamyeo haneun mal
Naega bureopdamyeon geugeon
Geudaedeuri jineun geo

Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry
Naega naega naega meonjeo
Nege nege nege ppajyeo
Ppajyeo ppajyeo beoryeo baby
Shawty Shawty Shawty Shawty
Nuni busyeo busyeo busyeo
Sumi makhyeo makhyeo makhyeo
Naega michyeo michyeo baby

Ttanttan ttanttada tta ttaranttan
Ttanttan ttanttada tta
Nege banhaebeoryeosseo baby
Ttanttan ttanttada tta ttararara
Ttanttan ttanttada tta ttarappappara

Let's dance dance dance dance
Let's dance dance dance dance
Let's dance dance dance dance
Dance dance

Hey ije geuman naege wajullae
Jeongmal michil geotman gata yeah
Nan neoman saranghago sipeo
Jeoldae dasi hannun pal saenggak eobseo hey

Aeiniragiboda chingugateun
Naega doego sipeo
Neoui modeun gomin seulpeum
Hamkke ganjikhagopa
Dasi eobseul mankeum mankeum
Neoreul neomu saranghae
Naega baran saram niga baro geu
That that that girl

Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry
Naega naega naega meonjeo
Nege nege nege ppajyeo
Ppajyeo ppajyeo beoryeo baby
Shawty Shawty Shawty Shawty
Nuni busyeo busyeo busyeo
Sumi makhyeo makhyeo makhyeo
Naega michyeo michyeo baby

NICE SONG!!!!

The Worst Day of The Month

2009-08-22T00:53:00.002+08:00

Today I woke up at 2pm, like usual I had my brunch (breakfast + lunch) while watching movie. After my meals suddenly my stomach felt very pain, I though it's not terrible, so I went to have a nap. But it's become painful and painful, "be ta han liao"..quickly I ask my friend to send me to nearby clinic..on the way there my stomach ache came to the worst even I start to drops my tears..after doctor had a check, he suspect I got appendix, I have to rush to hospital immediately. Oh what the heck, operation??? No way!! I hate this...directly my friend rush me to Serdang Goverment Hospital..after having 4 hours checking doctor said that I'm nothing and gave an injection to me..Phew...sweating again...don't even happpen to me again PLEASE!!!

我要唱歌

2009-08-20T02:15:00.003+08:00

我要唱歌啦！最近不断地在听萧敬腾的“王子的新衣”，越来越喜欢这首歌了。我真的决定明年会去参加新秀大赛，希望梦想可以实现。现在不断地在努力学好唱歌技巧，不断的在加强自己的嗓子，可是最近不知道发生了什么事，每一次歌曲一到高音就拉不上，有谁可以救救我。希望不会一直这样下去。因为我要唱歌给大家听！！

Things I Have To Do Now...

2009-07-27T00:32:00.002+08:00

Now what I have to do is only pay concentrate on my job..don't think about other things..maybe life is better when single..lol..and 1 more things the Astro Talent Quest was end and that means the next audition will come on next year..It's time to have some preparation for the audition..never think to win the competition...just hope that can get in to final 20 is enough...so maybe few months before the audition will keep asking ppl to go for K=Box with me....training what..hahaha..so hopefully I can have a better vocal start from now..GAMBATEH TO MYSELF!!!

I Did It..

2009-07-25T02:29:00.002+08:00

Finally I did it..I can let it go..Today I went to Mid Valley with her..but very weird..don have any feeling to her like before..now just treat her as a bestfriend...^^ And we have our dinner together..SWEET!!!

Let it go...

2009-07-03T17:59:00.002+08:00

It's few days past..the result was shown..and I know there is no more chance will be given to me..maybe like what my friend said it's useless compare self with other people..no one is perfect..just be happy..and I'm letting it go slowly..what can I do now is just wishing them happy together..GIRL, YOU'RE ALWAYS IN MY HEART..THANKS FOR MAKING MY HOLIDAYS WONDERFUL WHEN I WENT BACK LAST TIME..WISHING YOU HAPPY EVERYDAY..AND TAKE CARE..

The answer and I'm the loser..

2009-06-27T01:49:00.002+08:00

Finally I got the answer after I sms to her...thought that she din reply me..but I got it..Again I lost in this game of relationship..Always the loser..maybe she was right not choosen me..I'm not good enough..and I'm a person who just pass by her side..She's not a ordinary girl since I saw her when I went back to hometown..she is special for me, at least. But then i never given a chance and I know this is fate and I never beg for more than being her friend and share her happiness nor sadness. She's already owned a right man by her side, I'm just me, who is just a person that pass-by her life. I'm just being myself and she can continue to be his princess..Anyways, happy always, hope she takes good care of herself when come back to KL. I'll always keep her in my heart.

WISH HER HAPPY WITH HIM..

A "painful" day..

2009-06-26T16:16:00.003+08:00

I used to sleep at around 5.30am last night..cause she told me that no need to pick her up at KL Sentral..Suddenly around 9.00am my phone rang..It's daddy..but how come my dad's voice become a girl??? NO!!! It's her..she phoned me..I'm glad to listen to her voice..after bla bla bla for fews minutes..I wake up to have a wash then rush to downtown to meet her..Finally, I can see her..OH GOD!! I saw her I saw her..she's standing at Maybank..And we have our walk to Wisma Jerneh in about 10 minutes..And now the painfull part going to start..I thought we can go for other programmes after her interview...so I'm willing to wait for her..while she's waiting for interview I went for my breakfast..In around 45 minutes..she done..I rush back to meet her..She told me that she's with her senior at Sg.Wang..REALLY?? Or other "people" there? Never mind then..I don wanna disturb her..and I also walk to Sg.Wang..walk and walk, walk and walk..around 1 hours I been there...I thought I can meet her luckily..but it didn't happen..My head start to pain...maybe it's because of not enough sleep...but I wan to see her..walk again till BB plaza...still can't see her..BACK...On da way back to Bukit Jalil the sky was cloudly and it's going to rain..I worry her..how she go back?? I can't get in to her phone...Wat I can do is just send a msg for her and wait for the reply..After I back to home I take a nap for a while..I thought I will see her msg when I wake up..I phoned her again...Finally she pick up..and reach home safely..and from her mouth she said going to meals with...him..WHO IS THE "HIM" FROM HER MOUTH??? (Maybe I know the answer dy...)

Should I give up?

2009-06-24T01:47:00.003+08:00

When I was writing this blog, I was listening to JJ's song, 无尽的思念..My situation is really like the title of the song..I really miss her day and night..But what can I do is just looking at her picture silently..I dunno whether I am right making this desicion..but from my sense and what I saw, I know that I really don't have even a chance..I know, I know..I'm not good enough than other people, I don't have a nice look..I got a lot of bad habits..I'm alone again..ALONE!! I hold my tears again...WHY?? Why this kind of thing always happen on me..Why did I meet her when I go back? WHY all this happen to me..again that I said I really don't want..am I really don't have a chance to take care of you..I really like you..I LIKE YOU..I hope you know my feelings..I REALLY LIKE YOU..

Happy

2009-06-21T02:02:00.000+08:00

There are some kind of happy that I really can't describe. I had a phone talk to her..I feel great after I heard her voice..maybe this will always happen when you are fall in love to someone I think..^^HYM, I CAN TELL YOU SURELY THAT I REALLY LIKE YOU...

Bad sense..

2009-06-20T00:10:00.001+08:00

I also dunno why would I write this..suddenly a bad sense comes to me..She didn't answer my phone..isn't she try to avoid from me now?? Please, I don't want to lose you..I really don't wanna miss the chance again..I know, someone is in the same situation with me..maybe I not good enough than him..maybe what he can give to you that I not willing to do, but really, I will do all my best..just to get a chance from you..HYM, I WAITING THE CHANCE FROM YOU!!

I miss you

2009-06-19T17:59:00.000+08:00

HYM, I miss u...

What I wanna tell you..

2009-06-19T00:43:00.000+08:00

There's something that I have to tell you, thought I found my one true love, I couldn't show how i feel. I'm trying to ask for 1 chance from you, but I don't have the guts to do that. I gave up my heart, I tried to give you all of me. I feel uncomfortable this few because you are out of my sight..What I can do is just thinking of you day and night. I like you, I really like you, this is the sound of my honesty. All our moments together was great..thought it was just few days. Wish you are here with me now. My heart broken after I saw "something". I try to make a brand new start, but I can't, cause I know that I really like you..

You're the one...

2009-06-18T00:44:00.000+08:00

Actually, I dunno wat I'm gonna write on this post..Lots of things appear in my mind, but I dunno how to present it..Everytime I think of her some kind of feel that I cant describe comes to me..maybe happy or wat else..The only things that's gonna get me through is if I got you right here..You are the only one that comforts me and my reality is I want you to me by girl..Let me hear you saying that you are staying with me..I promise I won't let you down..

My feelings

2009-06-17T00:29:00.000+08:00

FInally I told her all my feelings....after having a phone talk with her nearly half and hour I feel much comfortable now...I never beg for more then being her friend..but i really hope that she know my feelings..and I'm very happy that I got chance to spend my last night with her at Kelantan last week..THANKS GOD..will this moment comes again?? Hopefully the answer will be "YES"!!! I know mybe I not good enough like other people..but I can tell you that I will do my best for you!!