The answer and I'm the loser..

Finally I got the answer after I sms to her...thought that she din reply me..but I got it..Again I lost in this game of relationship..Always the loser..maybe she was right not choosen me..I'm not good enough..and I'm a person who just pass by her side..She's not a ordinary girl since I saw her when I went back to hometown..she is special for me, at least. But then i never given a chance and I know this is fate and I never beg for more than being her friend and share her happiness nor sadness. She's already owned a right man by her side, I'm just me, who is just a person that pass-by her life. I'm just being myself and she can continue to be his princess..Anyways, happy always, hope she takes good care of herself when come back to KL. I'll always keep her in my heart.

WISH HER HAPPY WITH HIM..

A "painful" day..

I used to sleep at around 5.30am last night..cause she told me that no need to pick her up at KL Sentral..Suddenly around 9.00am my phone rang..It's daddy..but how come my dad's voice become a girl??? NO!!! It's her..she phoned me..I'm glad to listen to her voice..after bla bla bla for fews minutes..I wake up to have a wash then rush to downtown to meet her..Finally, I can see her..OH GOD!! I saw her I saw her..she's standing at Maybank..And we have our walk to Wisma Jerneh in about 10 minutes..And now the painfull part going to start..I thought we can go for other programmes after her interview...so I'm willing to wait for her..while she's waiting for interview I went for my breakfast..In around 45 minutes..she done..I rush back to meet her..She told me that she's with her senior at Sg.Wang..REALLY?? Or other "people" there? Never mind then..I don wanna disturb her..and I also walk to Sg.Wang..walk and walk, walk and walk..around 1 hours I been there...I thought I can meet her luckily..but it didn't happen..My head start to pain...maybe it's because of not enough sleep...but I wan to see her..walk again till BB plaza...still can't see her..BACK...On da way back to Bukit Jalil the sky was cloudly and it's going to rain..I worry her..how she go back?? I can't get in to her phone...Wat I can do is just send a msg for her and wait for the reply..After I back to home I take a nap for a while..I thought I will see her msg when I wake up..I phoned her again...Finally she pick up..and reach home safely..and from her mouth she said going to meals with...him..WHO IS THE "HIM" FROM HER MOUTH??? (Maybe I know the answer dy...)

Should I give up?

When I was writing this blog, I was listening to JJ's song, 无尽的思念..My situation is really like the title of the song..I really miss her day and night..But what can I do is just looking at her picture silently..I dunno whether I am right making this desicion..but from my sense and what I saw, I know that I really don't have even a chance..I know, I know..I'm not good enough than other people, I don't have a nice look..I got a lot of bad habits..I'm alone again..ALONE!! I hold my tears again...WHY?? Why this kind of thing always happen on me..Why did I meet her when I go back? WHY all this happen to me..again that I said I really don't want..am I really don't have a chance to take care of you..I really like you..I LIKE YOU..I hope you know my feelings..I REALLY LIKE YOU..

Happy

There are some kind of happy that I really can't describe. I had a phone talk to her..I feel great after I heard her voice..maybe this will always happen when you are fall in love to someone I think..^^HYM, I CAN TELL YOU SURELY THAT I REALLY LIKE YOU...

Bad sense..

I also dunno why would I write this..suddenly a bad sense comes to me..She didn't answer my phone..isn't she try to avoid from me now?? Please, I don't want to lose you..I really don't wanna miss the chance again..I know, someone is in the same situation with me..maybe I not good enough than him..maybe what he can give to you that I not willing to do, but really, I will do all my best..just to get a chance from you..HYM, I WAITING THE CHANCE FROM YOU!!

I miss you

HYM, I miss u...

What I wanna tell you..

There's something that I have to tell you, thought I found my one true love, I couldn't show how i feel. I'm trying to ask for 1 chance from you, but I don't have the guts to do that. I gave up my heart, I tried to give you all of me. I feel uncomfortable this few because you are out of my sight..What I can do is just thinking of you day and night. I like you, I really like you, this is the sound of my honesty. All our moments together was great..thought it was just few days. Wish you are here with me now. My heart broken after I saw "something". I try to make a brand new start, but I can't, cause I know that I really like you..

You're the one...

Actually, I dunno wat I'm gonna write on this post..Lots of things appear in my mind, but I dunno how to present it..Everytime I think of her some kind of feel that I cant describe comes to me..maybe happy or wat else..The only things that's gonna get me through is if I got you right here..You are the only one that comforts me and my reality is I want you to me by girl..Let me hear you saying that you are staying with me..I promise I won't let you down..

My feelings

FInally I told her all my feelings....after having a phone talk with her nearly half and hour I feel much comfortable now...I never beg for more then being her friend..but i really hope that she know my feelings..and I'm very happy that I got chance to spend my last night with her at Kelantan last week..THANKS GOD..will this moment comes again?? Hopefully the answer will be "YES"!!! I know mybe I not good enough like other people..but I can tell you that I will do my best for you!!